Arghhhh , i think i made a big mistake. i shouldn't do that  :(
feel bad for it. hmmm, how ah? LOL
but i promise to myself must be a good girl. hahaha.. no way i will do out of my limit anymore.

Do you guys know that, when somethings doesnt really goes like what you expected  ...
will be a dilemma for you ?
you will feel damn suffering and started to be moody and down.
thank god i don't really feel down after few days :)
just take it as a lesson and its enough kay ?
i must really determine myself !

and one thing, i don't like to lie.
Lie is so not my type. i don't enjoy covertly.
no way i will do it again man .
and somehow you may think that i'm a bad girl or something..
I'M NOT !
alah , although is not a serious thing but then..
i still feel bad with it la. somehow , it may be serious to others ? who knows right..

and , i don't like busy guys.
i hate seeing them taking their handphones out again and again.
prefer single ! :)
serious la , dun you guys think that single is now better than couple ?
i mean , i know if you have a partner is better than being alone.
but when break up time , you will never tell me single is the bad choice. haha.

Last time i used to think that having a boyfriend will make me feel secure.
and what i thought of myself last time for now is seriously childish like crazy.
why cant we be independent ?
you won't get sad cause you will not experience the break up moment.
you won't get sad cause you will not experience the argument with your partner.
Do you really think we need a partner in our life ?
the answer is , YES i do.. but not for now.
since i have so many choices in my life. i dun wanna choose any guy in a rush.

perhaps my true love will appear in the future ?
what i needa do is just to wait. and...

#1. concentrate on my studies
#2. concentrate in my work
#3. enjoy my life.

thats the thing i need to do now.
seriously ! i feel so so damn happy cause i'm not the last time of me.
i don think childish stuff.
much more mature than last time.
i dun need a boyfriend beside me for now.
i manage to do things by myself.


actually , i think it is pretty good d right ?
 haha. and i know what am i doing.
i appreciate what my friend advised me. serious..
i'm glad to have her as my friend man ! xD
although... sometimes i'm bad in dance she scolded me. LOL!

thats all for today. will update soon ! :)

Thursday

oh shit ! i'm fail again but success once ! LOL! anything la. experience maa ..
hmmm, thursday i went to audition. LOL! this is the funniest part . hahahhaa.. i cant stop laughing whenever i think of it ..
let's talk bout it. That day , i went to dance audition. then, sooner i feel like getting myself in for singing in the audition. so immediately, me and yiwei went down to 3th floor in college to print out the song's lyrics. OMG ! it was so so damn funny. i keep practising my singing in the toilet and everywhere while waiting for my turn to sing in audition. yiwei and melody were beside me and listen to me.
and... one of them came out from theathre and told me my turn now. so i needa go in to sing.
funniest part hahaha. i went up to the stage. i sang
sang till half way, i sing out of tone. damn dumb man ! LOL!
i quickly jump down from stage and asked stacy not to record first.
then, i went up to the stage and sing again. hahahaha
sang three times only managed to sing a better tone out for that part. LOL !
it was kinda embarrasing . but among all friends that i know so i'm okay with it :)

dunno why le. nowadays i'm not scare of crowd already.. i brave alot compare to my last time haha.


Friday

had BBQ at meikuan's house. bought 3 bottles of carbonated drinks to her house. cause we were having pot luck ma.
some of them bought jagung, chicken wing, snacks, sausage, cocktails and more... and the theme was white. and i dun know bout it. guess what colour i wore? hahaha. i'm so outstanding la. i wore a bright red t shirt. hahaha.  there's only 4 of us wore other colour instead of white.
eat all heaty food and drink less water makes me feel so sick now. sob..
we had alot of fun . its interesting. i enjoyed !